LEP 4.12.

Wednesday, 4 December 2024 10:33
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I understand the point being made, because Shinigami Eyes does brand itself as an "anti-transphobia" tool rather than an anti-transmisogyny tool, but I don't actually think reviewbombing and trying to convince the devs to take issues that face non-white non-perisex non-trans women seriously is going to do anything. Shinigami Eyes is a tool that only works for those and on those with public platforms. When it's being used against other marginalised people, it just becomes a purity test of whether or not a sufficiently public trans woman approves of your statements.

I think if people really want Shinigami Eyes to be better, they should fork it and write up actual rules rather than telling people to go with a vibe of whether or not someone thinks a trans woman is a man in a dress. All the code is on Github and I've entertained the idea of forking it in the past for personal use, but I also think that the crowdsourcing method for using a tool like this is always going to limit its functionality and it's effectiveness.

I don't actually think trying to convince someone that they're capable of hurting other people is worth the effort ever. Otherwise we wouldn't have to keep having the conversation about white feminist victim complex literally any time someone says that women are capable of being bad sometimes.

LEP 2.12.

Monday, 2 December 2024 11:26
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Really feeling that "when it rains you just don't get a day" post this morning.

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On the one hand I went an almost even round four years without catching covid once so, like, in a way this was inevitable

but I've never felt so sick in my fucking life.

LEP 9.11.

Saturday, 9 November 2024 21:06
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I haven't been doing much writing since September, but I don't actually feel too bad about that. One reason is that I don't really push myself to become a popular writer anymore, having kind of realised that I prefer to say things at my own pace whether or not anyone ever reads them, and the other reason is that I've had the worst writer's blocks known to man every December any time I've tried to push myself to write all throughout October and November. The part of me that is good at making the words go is solar-powered and only works for the 6 months of year when we have more daylight than not.

I am still extremely funny on Discord, and that's all that matters.

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I think, if I could have one thing rn, is that people would stop acting like the only people internationally who cared about the outcome of this election are liberally brainrotted people who think the system works.

I knew that no matter how this turned out, after we joined NATO Finland is now inextricably a part of the International Misery Production Network. The only direction joining NATO provided was deeper into imperialism. But now I also have to think about whether or not Russia has the military capacity to be fighting multifront wars, on top of already thinking about how to keep fighting for Ukraine.

Under Harris, I wouldn't have at least had to worry about the US reneging on all its NATO "commitments" (came back to add scarequotes around "commitments" because as far as I can tell, NATO never owed us shit) because Putin asked nicely.

LEP 3.11.

Sunday, 3 November 2024 02:11
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The chronic need to Get Good is real, y'all. It's 2am and I've already taken my meds but because I'm capable of standing up and walking around my first instinct is to turn on Beat Saber to see if I can finally pass "Power of the Saber Blade" on hard with no-fail turned off.

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XENOBLADE X DEFINITIVE EDITION IN SPRING 2025

THIS IS NOT A DRILL I AM ABOUT TO BECOME SO ANNOYING :DDDD

LEP 24.10.

Thursday, 24 October 2024 10:42
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Interesting to occasionally see posts about The Locked Tomb fandom (overwhelmingly sapphic) having a complete disinterest in even the hottest men in the same way most of fandom (overwhelmingly straight) having disinterest in even the hottest women, and how my experience of fandom (invenerate bisexual) being that I know at least one person thirsting after every possible character as variety is the spice of life.

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Ever since I realised New Laptop was capable of running Beat Saber, I've been lethally tempted to get a pair of VR goggles to feed my hunger for physical rhythm games, and because he knows no moderation, my friend Jade got me a pair as an early Christmas present. (He is not allowed to buy me any more presents XD) After setting one of my modems up as a Dedicated Oculus Support Station, I got the game to run decently well and oh my god it actually is crazy fun and addicting. I'm gonna be getting so much more exercise in my free time from now on.

LEP 6.10.

Sunday, 6 October 2024 14:25
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I'm waiting for the day when someone other than Dogpack writes about the Mr Beast situation that doesn't include frankly irrelevant details about the Twitter habits of a trans woman and actually tells me if real actual people were preyed the way we know they have been by other Mr Beast staffers.

EDIT: actually I'm downgrading my expectations to someone talking about this without dragging out the corpse of the career of an edgelord hentai artist because you are, in fact, a moral scold afraid of drawings until there is a real human being that was victimised.

FURTHER EDIT: Yes this is about Jack Saint's video and he does at least clear the hurdle of stating outright that a lot of people are using the inappropriate behaviour around children as substitute for the impression of Mr Beast team being full of child predators and the transphobic mirage of the groomer is specifically targeted at the person whose known victim is another trans woman. So that's, like. It's sad that this is the level we're at. Performative mention of bad, disgusting porn is the greens I gotta eat to be allowed access to the conversation about actual harm done to real people.

LEP 25.9.

Wednesday, 25 September 2024 11:03
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I'm sorry, but calling painting graffiti with water-soluble paint on the parliamentary building "undemocratic and authoritarian" is the most cringe and politically illiterate shit I've ever heard.

Whose fucking authority, my guy?

LEP 23.9.

Monday, 23 September 2024 11:03
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RyeToast is the best FNAF channel, I've decided.

Which you wouldn't be able to tell from the clickbait thumbnails and titles at all, but that is on purpose.

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Now that's a cool use of the technology. It even goes back to having that fuzzy, blobby, static-y feeling the earlier models that I really kind of liked has, because all of these illusions are derived from those middle-weight steps.


Stuff like this is why I keep saying that AI will make a fantastic drafting tool one day. Can you imagine how some of these illusions will look once a human artist actually cleans up all the impossible geometry and weird fringing? Can you imagine what an extra step of curation and handcraft is gonna do for these concepts? :D

LEP 13.9.

Friday, 13 September 2024 13:40
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All of my frustration with Mesmerizer being 2/3rd the length of a real song aside, I absolutely understand why it randomly became the absolute biggest possible thing among Vocaloid fans because watching Kasane Teto realise in real time that she's stuck in the nightcore nightmare dimension and that all of her communication towards the audience to please help her out is futile because none of us care!!!

It's viscerally relatable. Oops your problems are much worse than you thought and what turned out to be cries of help have gone totally unseen by everyone around you. Poor you!

LEP 12.8.

Thursday, 12 September 2024 14:33
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Today I discovered that one of the reasons the Micro-B USB design became a stardard first for data and then later for charging is because Nokia was still enough of a market force to push for it, explicitly so they wouldn't have to go the proprietary cable route the way Apple had. (The charger standardisation came later, through EU legislation)

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The Elusive Samurai is definitely the best show this season just on the production design and tone control and DIRECTION!!!! alone. It's so insanely stylish and the production is so, so well-considered in its budgeting that every time we get one of the more batshit sequences of visual flair to match the manga, it's breathtaking every time.

I am actively spreading my arms, expecting the three final episodes of the season to be a Feelings Blender equivalent to the first episode. Episode 9 didn't even have a preview. It's gonna be great. I love getting pulverized by the most beautiful animation I've ever seen.

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Having taken a look at Kami Imai's Dendro manga, it's a worthy adaptation that understands the appeal very well but is still very tonally different. It's my least favourite thing of Dendro I've seen so far, just because I love Taiki's illustrations and the anime's tone that much, but it's not bad, just different.

The one thing I cannot forgive it for is Shu's avatar no longer having long hair like he does in all of Taiki's art. How are you gonna take away his charm point like that. How dare you remove the source of his power.

LEP 28.8.

Wednesday, 28 August 2024 10:18
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Woke up this morning thinking about how funny it is that gender criticals apparently complain about Steph Sterling having a "biological advantage" in her career as a pro wrestler.

Pro wrestler.

Are women just... worse at athletics as a whole now? Acting?? Pretending to get hit in the face?

.... actually no, that last point has to be it, isn't it. It's unwomanly to want to pretend to do cartoonish physical violence at people but if some poor insane girls want to do it, they shouldn't be doing it with ~men~ who are probably there because they get off on it or something. Never fucking mind that as a trans wrestler, Sterling was competing against men just a while back where she was very firmly a comedy jobber and a big body and, y'know, continues to be that.

I comprehend it. I understand the logic. But I also legitimately do not get how terfs don't realise how utterly antifeminist it is to look at someone like her going "I am a heel who gets on peoples nerves on purpose so the handsome athletic babyface girlies can come and kick my ass, and it feels super cathartic! :D" Like, there's no way her face stint is gonna last. Sterling is, and I say this lovingly, a troll. How are they this bad at engaging with media?

LEP 24.8.

Saturday, 24 August 2024 14:14
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Rare 8/10 pain day. Holding up my phone to read books on it is just barely too tiring.

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I've been listening to a lot of Sephardic music linked by someone I follow on Tumblr, which put this on the front page and it's a genuinely fantastic video about orientalism, cultural shorthand, and, frankly, ethnographic ignorance making people write just whatever, except the thing being written is notes instead of words.
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Truly is there anything as bittersweet and discouraging as realising that the advice you're giving boils down to "just get good at the thing I (the person giving the advice) am already good at"?

I've been called some variation of "silvertongue" since I was like fifteen. I'm very good at forming convincing arguments and talking people flat, and I have zero modulation on it at all to the point where people find me the easiest to work with when I'm in Operational Mode: Shut Up And Keep Walking. I've put a lot of work into translating this into good writing, and my standards for my writing are infuriatingly high to the point where I really could benefit from going on a "write your shitty pots" stint again so I stop hitting ctrl+A Del on my posts the moment they don't reach those stupid high standards I somehow have despite being fully aware that the ability to string a fun sentence together athrophies when you aren't actively doing that. I am a good writer. I don't think it's that vain of me to say that.

And yet now when I have my fresh cup of coffee and I'm looking at this thing that I just wrote off the cuff, trying to generalise the lessons I took from a recent instance of people complaining in my vicinity about both sides of a thing that didn't need to be an argument... I genuinely just kind of think that it's bad advice. Well-meaning, but bad. Truly, I would not blame anyone for thinking this is just the hypocrisy of someone with an easy time communicating looking down on everyone who doesn't.

And I really don't mean it like that. I do genuinely think that most of the time when someone says something harsh and bitter, they don't fully mean it with their chest -- because I do it, because I'm constantly fighting the urge to do it, and because I really care about sounding like I'm not taking myself too seriously, delete things that make me sound too much like someone is living rent-free in my head. It's just so much easier to talk about someone else than to talk about yourself. It is very vulnerable to talk about yourself, rather than assume a step-back objective position where you can leave your own feelings as implication.

I guess what I should have written instead was some kind of a reiteration of Patricia Taxxon's commentary on commentary (on Youtube), and how it's very easy and fun to make reply videos because you inherently have a white-goes-first advantage and the ability to control the framing and the context of your own rhetoric when you've got someone else there taking up half of the analytical estate. I think a lot of what people are doing with their complaining-dominant fannish activity is just that. It's really easy to be sloppy with your arguments as long as you've got someone else you can technically be doing better than.

LEP 16.8.

Friday, 16 August 2024 11:33
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Mildly concerned about the sudden jump in valorising normality in the wake of The Country That Shall Not Be Named's presidential race making "weirdo" the du jour political slur.

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I've made this exact joke many times by now but I fully think that if you ask Sechs what his type is, he will ponder it and then entirely sincerely describe someone tall and athletic with long dark hair (and big breasts), leading everyone in IF to be like huh, the boss is surprisingly shallow when you get down to it, except for Rascal who listens to the description and immediately goes "for fuck's sake, Leader", b/c that is, in fact, just a distaff Shu Starling.

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I had to take a 90min trip to the nearest town with a supermarket to stock up on frozen goodies and man. I really do love driving.

Unfortunately I made a very stupid judgement call looking at the weather report and going "eh, 70% means I'll probably be out of the way before the rainstorm hits" and thus was on the one annoying part of the highway just as it started raining for real for proper. IDK why the fuck that one bit of highway has a sudden way slower section that always causes cars to clump up and never actually give me space again after we hit the 100 km/h part again, I feel like I should probably call.... someone about that and complain that I do not want to deal with Perpetual Enforced Tailgating Zones forever.

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Out of all the things I've watched to try to understand why Yankee Fundies are the way they are, this one genuinely did the best job.

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