[sticky entry] Sticky: Introductory post

Sunday, 23 December 2018 18:29
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Name: Van
Age: Old enough
Pronouns:
Null/void, they/them

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Inspired by [personal profile] silveradept 's comment policy post, (which captures my extended thoughts on comments to the letter) let's jot down a few things potential new subscribers and friends should probably know out the gates:

1) This blog is 99.8% public, and the only way to get access is to quite literally Be My Friend and someone I talk to on almost a daily regular. (Actually, if you have access without feeling like you should? That's me being friends with you through the mere exposure effect. HMU.)

2) I will lock posts I don't want to talk about. I'll hide posts I don't want linked around. The only time I don't like links/comments is when commenting is disabled. Outside of producing content, I see it as my job to keep my journal clean, not anyone else's who might wanna engage me where my words happen to be at the moment.

3) Just like on Ao3, I give full permission to remix, podfic, translate, create art for or create secondary fanwork of any fanwork I have posted. I also give blanket permission to reach out and comment and engage with me or my stories by commenting or on other platforms by discussing, recommending or using my works in a critique. However, I reserve the right to choose my own form of response, and I do not blanket agree to accept or engage with comments or criticism of me or my work.

DW doesn't have an ask box. It only has DMs, which I'm fine with and like receiving, BUT in case people DO want to interact with me anonymously, this post is their chance to do so. Also, doesn't have to be anonymous -- you're free to identify yourself and use this as a public conversation channel if you're simply not fussed about making a DW account. All comments are screened, unless you have access -- at that point I trust you enough to Not Make My Journal A Mess.

LEP 2.1.

Friday, 2 January 2026 03:18
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Happy New Year!

I'm reading the Locked Tomb books and I am looking forward to the moment one of my other fandoms requires me to write a necrocav AU for my blorbos.

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Actually crazy how much you'd think occasionally having an OS that simply will not do what you want would be frustrating and put me off from experimenting with Mint, but I'm finding out that it's actually the other way around. Even if I have to do things for a slightly cumbersome way for a while, when it does reach a critical level of annoyance I often find myself developing new skills to compensate, which makes using Mint a lot more fun than using Windows.

LEP 23.11.

Sunday, 23 November 2025 19:25
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I wish I had someone to hash out my Homestuck feelings with who had the same relationship to the comic as I do. Being so far removed from the situation, isolated by layers of language and physical distance, makes it so that I will probably never be able to have any certainty over anything, and I would feel selfish going up to people who are closer to the issue to ask them to recount their experiences to me, but like a lot of extremely on-fire discourse that happens exclusively on the anglophone internet between mostly US-based users, it always does leave me with half-finished feelings and a bad taste in my mouth.

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Having narrowly avoided reading Shrike the riot act about how the current situation – in which he and Beebs are now dealing with a mutual rejection of all of the bonding they’d been doing up to this point – is all Shrike’s own fucking fault, I do also want to talk about what agency Beebs has over the situation, and the ways in which he is also culpable for his own part of the bad communication.

Screencap from ep3 of Beebs looking distressed with a caption of him saying "Though I'm starting to have a LOT of questions..." Screencap from ep5 of Beebs standing in the background, visibly upset as Commander Tezzorree speaks to Shrike from offscreen. The caption reads "-AND your actions reflect poorly on ALL involved."

Because, like, it’s fairly obvious that Beebs is also practicing some crazy selective sharing with Shrike, right? He may have taken Shrike at his word about having left Enforcement, but he openly references Shrike still having some unfinished business with the suit and the presumably-everything-else associated with it. And while I acknowledge that this is Shrike, and he may have simply not cared to ask, I genuinely don’t get the sense that Shrike knows much about Beebs’ personal history. I maintain that it’s likely that Beebs is actively hiding things from Shrike too, otherwise he wouldn’t be acting guilty and cagey whenever the topic of Shrike associating with him comes up.

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LEP 1.11.

Saturday, 1 November 2025 16:51
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The one thing I would really want in this world is for CJ the X and Ro Ramdin to get popular enough that they can afford to pay transcribers to get good subtitles on all of their videos.

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I haven't really been Linuxposting as much as I expected because truly the experience has for the most part been so seamless and easy that I haven't felt the need to seek emotional support, but on Friday I took my first crack at debugging my NVidia issues that have stopped me from playing Beat Saber on Linux, and I managed to bone it up badly enough that I had to reinstall Mint entirely.

And amusingly enough this experience has only made me more convinced that switching to Linux was not only the right call, but an incredible boon to me specifically, because the reinstall took a grand total of two hours and in four I was up and running with everything looking exactly the way it had been pre-reinstall.

I've never felt such a sense of power over my computing apparatus forreal.

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I do actually think that before episode 4, Beebs was used to getting promises he could trust him to keep out of Shrike, which is why Shrike relapsing ends up triggering such a big breakdown in communication between them, resulting in what I consider the most heinous shit we’ve heard him say to Beebs until now.

Screencap from ep4 of Beebs and Shrike shaking hands with their pinkies, with a caption of Shrike saying "I shouldn't have taught you this" Screencap from ep5 of Shrike angrily leaning over in the pilot seat with a caption of him saying "Then he should get used to it."

Episodes 2 and 3 go out of their way to establish that both Beebs and Shrike make bids for connection through sharing their interests. Treating ep3 as a representative showcase, we get an example of a kind of trade of bids going on between them – Beebs teaching Shrike to play the guitar, and approaching him to spend time with him for its own sake, Shrike* *changing his patterns to better accommodate Beebs’ interests, staying out of his way and also practicing the guitar by himself. The relationship is two-sided, even with Beebs being perhaps more proactive in maintaining it because he’s just a lot more gregarious than Shrike is.

We also know that the Terran stuff matters a lot to Shrike. The pizza, the cartoons, his interest in El Bandito specifically is a major part of a different bid for connection he makes in episode 2 (which Beebs takes in the form of dropping the argument), and it’s also a part of how Beebs approaches Shrike in episode 3 when he’s making his own bid for Shrike’s company (which Shrike takes and immediately *returns *by asking for more guitar lessons. They’re so funny to me, just endlessly doing little kindnesses at each other and being so fucking snarky every other time.)

Screencap from ep2 of Shrike pointing to a picture of El Bandito and Dos Pantalones on his phone. Screencap from ep3 of Shrike holding up a guitar with a caption of him saying "You... wanna show me more guitar stuff?"

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It's kind of galling just how much Monkey Wrench seems to be written For Me, Specifically, especially b/c within the episodes that are out they've both established extremely clear visual symbolism (in the form of triangles, diamonds and circles) and extremely clear colour symbolism (in the form of the primaries red, yellow and blue, plus the villainous green) and now I'm looking through all of the episodes with a magnifying glass, spotting those patterns everywhere and questioning if that's a design decision made for cohesion and visual interest or if it's worldbuilding hiding in plain sight.

I already kind of convinced myself that purple is the designated Endling Colour:tm:, but the case is so shaky I know I'm basically just seeing the Shrike-Punti parallel and extrapolating where doing that isn't necessary. But like why would they establish Secondary Colours Bad if they were gonna use PURPLE there?

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I woke up thinking about the Terran pendant and how Shrike taking it off Jaw Bone and then trying to find a way to give it to Beebs is a peace offering. "If it makes you feel better--", he says, because he knows it's valuable, but he chose to give it to Beebs because at least they can sell it if Beebs doesn't appreciate that Shrike is trying to make a bid for connection (through his interests, the same way we know Beebs has done for him. They do it in episode 3 at each other)

(I'm on the floor crying.)

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I am back from my general holiday revelry and one of the last things I did with Saikku was watch Monkey Wrench. It has now joined the list of "indie animation I watch on Youtube where I genuinely cannot wait for the next episode", and furthermore I feel extremely called out by the fact that not a week later, after my first rewatch, I made a joke on Discord about how Shrike and Beebs are like if "fandom Bulkjack was interesting"

God. I do not know when to shut my fucking mouth do I.

LEP 19.9.

Friday, 19 September 2025 20:00
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My other birthday present -- an Elgato capture card -- arrived today and I'm honestly delighted by how much of it is packed in cardboard. The only plastic thing in the package was the capture card itself, having a plastic casing, and a die-cut sticker I slapped on my PS2 b/c why not. The clamshell the card and cables were in was cardboard, and even the ribbons holding the cable rolls closed were cardboard instead of plastic.

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I've just managed to install Linux Mint 22.1 on my computer and I've discovered that first install Linux takes just as much updating and polishing the inside of the screen to get it up and running as Windows.

I did immediately find a way to get all of my Firefox settings over, and I'm currently working out how to best install Discord so that I don't run into hardware issues -- plus the obligatory "cleaning up the interface and setting myself some nice background images and system sounds.

LEP 15.9.

Monday, 15 September 2025 13:11
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It's so funny to me that for years my friends have had actors where they'll watch literally anything, no matter how bad it is, with that person in it, and I have now also reached this point except it's a Streamy Boy who is like nine years younger than me.

He is simply Silly™️

LEP 30.8.

Sunday, 31 August 2025 00:40
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After trying for three hours to unsuccessfully get my Quest 2 to acknowledge that it's connected to a PC so that the apparently contextual "use USB connection for troubleshooting" popup would show up and let me add my current computer as a trusted source, I've reached a level of loathing for Meta that I didn't think was possible.

Like. Let's be 100% clear about something. Consumer VR is not going to be viable at least for the next five years, and it's not because the hardware is too unaffordable -- it's because Meta is a greedy control freak of a company that makes me spin around five times and then get on my knees to beg for permission to work on apps to sell on their platform, and will still arbitrarily refuse me because of the phase of the moon or something.

If this had happened while I was at work, needing to USB troubleshoot something on a Quest 2 and instead doing stupid little dances for the hardware provider and getting nowhere, I would just. Quit. I would quit. And probably throw my Quest through a window.

LEP 29.8.

Friday, 29 August 2025 22:54
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This may be a callous statement from someone who as of today has not yet installed a Linux distro on my computer, but I think for the purposes of getting Linux gaming ahead, it would be fair for developers to only explicitly provide support for certain combinations of distros and install methods. If Linux users, a 0.1% of the base, are generating over 20% of the bug tickets during a game's lifetime, that's not sustainable for developers to try to respond to.

On the other hand I'm really disappointed in F-secure for having no Linux support even on their industry side.

LEP 2.7.

Wednesday, 2 July 2025 15:23
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I should remember, that every time I feel like my blorbo is being sidelined by the fandom in favour of a more photogenic ship, I am not alone. After all, Rostand wrote Cyrano de Bergerac in 1897.

LEP 29.6.

Sunday, 29 June 2025 16:07
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Tbh something I think about a lot the more I casually watch streamers (my problem is that I am always either asleep or at work when all the Big Name Yankees/Canadians are online) is that we all know that a lot of Youtubers and streamers functionally owe their career to the pandemic. A lot of streamers started because they lost their jobs or were transitioned into WFH, and there was nowhere to go and be during the quarantine, and a lot of people who previously hadn't cared about streaming started watching more of it for the hangout aspect of it, because the chats and communities of these streamers provided a third space and a social hangout, also because the audience had nowhere to be during quarantine.

But what I'm really curious about is how the streamer boom changed the general media consumption habits of the people who got deep into streamers. I know that after 2022 the streamer/Youtube market had a bit of a bubble burst, and now in 2025 we're seeing the long-term fallout from online video no longer being as lucrative and selling adspace no longer having the big payouts it did before. Like, regardless of the pie getting smaller, streaming is definitely way more popular in 2024-25 than it was in 2018-19. A lot of people who used to watch tv and streaming services casually have simply stopped, the blame being laid in the feet of streaming services for becoming worse products, but I'm curious what percentage of those people get their entertainment from the kind of live performances streamers provide instead.

LEP 26.6.

Thursday, 26 June 2025 22:41
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I have a scratch in the coating of my glasses right in the middle of my vision

:(

LEP 10.6.

Tuesday, 10 June 2025 16:25
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My theory that you should always prime any conversation that includes even a little bit of moral ambiguity by asking how someone feels about furries keeps bearing out.

LEP 5.6.

Thursday, 5 June 2025 14:13
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It's honestly very funny to me that in 2016 or whenever Clearview came out, I didn't like it and was sad about how my once favourite band was going in a direction I didn't like

And then two years ago I listened to it again for the first time and realised that Oh, wow, no, I was just super fucking depressed back then and the album fucks.

It's now my second favourite Poets album. Lmao.

LEP 3.6.

Tuesday, 3 June 2025 12:23
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I don't wanna fucking go to work.

LEP 24.5.

Saturday, 24 May 2025 19:02
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One technology I wish I had access to is freeze drying for the explicit purpose of making treats for myself and nothing else.

But having seen the Technology Connections video on freeze drying, I understand that for now that time is a beautiful dream for the future.

LEP 18.5.

Sunday, 18 May 2025 13:37
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Why is The Spruce so popular when their fucking site is so horribly bad. It's always at the top of my search results and no matter what I do the site simply will not scroll or display pictures correctly.

LEP 15.5.

Thursday, 15 May 2025 11:06
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I love trying to describe my job in the smallest words possible because it sounds like nothing.

I loosen and fasten screws and bolts all day.

LEP 13.5.

Tuesday, 13 May 2025 12:53
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I have so few friends who aren't either queer or autistic that whenever I'm exposed to supposedly completely heterosexual games of gay chicken I'm just like ???? are you sure you're not just bi? Is this a bit??

Men be saying some of the most violently homoerotic shit to each other but it's fine because it's not flirting, it's not, they're straight, honest!!!

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