Lmao. I see Youtube has now proceeded to threaten to block my access entirely if I don't turn off my adblocker.

Really feeling that "when it rains you just don't get a day" post this morning.

I haven't been doing much writing since September, but I don't actually feel too bad about that. One reason is that I don't really push myself to become a popular writer anymore, having kind of realised that I prefer to say things at my own pace whether or not anyone ever reads them, and the other reason is that I've had the worst writer's blocks known to man every December any time I've tried to push myself to write all throughout October and November. The part of me that is good at making the words go is solar-powered and only works for the 6 months of year when we have more daylight than not.

I am still extremely funny on Discord, and that's all that matters.

The chronic need to Get Good is real, y'all. It's 2am and I've already taken my meds but because I'm capable of standing up and walking around my first instinct is to turn on Beat Saber to see if I can finally pass "Power of the Saber Blade" on hard with no-fail turned off.

Interesting to occasionally see posts about The Locked Tomb fandom (overwhelmingly sapphic) having a complete disinterest in even the hottest men in the same way most of fandom (overwhelmingly straight) having disinterest in even the hottest women, and how my experience of fandom (invenerate bisexual) being that I know at least one person thirsting after every possible character as variety is the spice of life.

I'm waiting for the day when someone other than Dogpack writes about the Mr Beast situation that doesn't include frankly irrelevant details about the Twitter habits of a trans woman and actually tells me if real actual people were preyed the way we know they have been by other Mr Beast staffers.

EDIT: actually I'm downgrading my expectations to someone talking about this without dragging out the corpse of the career of an edgelord hentai artist because you are, in fact, a moral scold afraid of drawings until there is a real human being that was victimised.

FURTHER EDIT: Yes this is about Jack Saint's video and he does at least clear the hurdle of stating outright that a lot of people are using the inappropriate behaviour around children as substitute for the impression of Mr Beast team being full of child predators and the transphobic mirage of the groomer is specifically targeted at the person whose known victim is another trans woman. So that's, like. It's sad that this is the level we're at. Performative mention of bad, disgusting porn is the greens I gotta eat to be allowed access to the conversation about actual harm done to real people.

RyeToast is the best FNAF channel, I've decided.

Which you wouldn't be able to tell from the clickbait thumbnails and titles at all, but that is on purpose.

All of my frustration with Mesmerizer being 2/3rd the length of a real song aside, I absolutely understand why it randomly became the absolute biggest possible thing among Vocaloid fans because watching Kasane Teto realise in real time that she's stuck in the nightcore nightmare dimension and that all of her communication towards the audience to please help her out is futile because none of us care!!!

It's viscerally relatable. Oops your problems are much worse than you thought and what turned out to be cries of help have gone totally unseen by everyone around you. Poor you!

The Elusive Samurai is definitely the best show this season just on the production design and tone control and DIRECTION!!!! alone. It's so insanely stylish and the production is so, so well-considered in its budgeting that every time we get one of the more batshit sequences of visual flair to match the manga, it's breathtaking every time.

I am actively spreading my arms, expecting the three final episodes of the season to be a Feelings Blender equivalent to the first episode. Episode 9 didn't even have a preview. It's gonna be great. I love getting pulverized by the most beautiful animation I've ever seen.

Woke up this morning thinking about how funny it is that gender criticals apparently complain about Steph Sterling having a "biological advantage" in her career as a pro wrestler.

Pro wrestler.

Are women just... worse at athletics as a whole now? Acting?? Pretending to get hit in the face?

.... actually no, that last point has to be it, isn't it. It's unwomanly to want to pretend to do cartoonish physical violence at people but if some poor insane girls want to do it, they shouldn't be doing it with ~men~ who are probably there because they get off on it or something. Never fucking mind that as a trans wrestler, Sterling was competing against men just a while back where she was very firmly a comedy jobber and a big body and, y'know, continues to be that.

I comprehend it. I understand the logic. But I also legitimately do not get how terfs don't realise how utterly antifeminist it is to look at someone like her going "I am a heel who gets on peoples nerves on purpose so the handsome athletic babyface girlies can come and kick my ass, and it feels super cathartic! :D" Like, there's no way her face stint is gonna last. Sterling is, and I say this lovingly, a troll. How are they this bad at engaging with media?