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[yvannairie]

I don't want to go to aikido today, because anger and allergies are too tiring and I'd just be snippy and annoyed and short-tempered and that's not conductive to training.

Uuuuuuuuuuuugh

Comments

[shadaras]

That sounds like a fair decision. There are definitely days when I've used aikido as a pick-me-up after a day that sort of sucked, but that's a particular mood and a particular way of interacting with people that doesn't always work.

Good luck finding equilibrium <3

[yvannairie]

We're currently training for graduation, which is more self-directed and regimented than normal lessons, so I'm not super worried about missing one or two lessons before that, too. I'm lucky I'm sick now instead of at the end of the month.

[shadaras]

Oh, is testing stuff coming up? Because that's always a fun time. :)

[yvannairie]

I don't feel ready for it, tbh. Testing was such a formal, arduous thing in karate and I'm but a bab that doesn't know how to move right TvT)

[shadaras]

You're in a different area than I am, of course, but in all the dojos I know about testing is more of a celebration than anything else? Like, sure, it's formal, but generally you don't test unless everyone knows you're gonna succeed, so... it's just a formalized demonstration.

And beginner tests especially just expect you to show basic knowledge of vocabulary and movement. :)

[yvannairie]

Yeah that sounds about right x'D my teacher was very casual about it, "you've got a month to practice before and you're already doing fine".

And, yeah, I already have memorised and can do the 6th and 5th kyu stuff, it's not the memorisation I'm worried about as much as it is wondering if I can get my movements to stop feeling jerky and awkward in just a month =w=)

[shadaras]

Aw, you probably look less jerky and awkward than you think, and also nobody will really mind you being jerky and awkward for 6th/5th kyu anyway. :) But yeah, I get why you'd want to stop feeling that way, even if it isn't actually a problem right now. You'll get there. It's just about time.

[yvannairie]

;3;) you're so encouraging, thank you.

[shadaras]

<3