Less depresso more espresso

So I should contact the people whose bids I won for FFOZ before I go off to commit to negotiating more commissions, but... You know that thing where you do a thing because at the time it felt righteous and like a good idea to get involved in and then it turns out to be way more duty and difficulty than you intended and you kinda wanna back out but hell, you already committed so you shouldn't be such a whiny baby about it?

In this instance, the only thing I've committed to is chatting up a few writers about writing some Things and I shouldn't feel guilty because they're the ones who wanted to provide that incentive in the first place, but. Oh god, I hate being a customer, I hate even making requests. If I just default and never give them prompts, they're probably not gonna be too upsetti because it just means less work for them and more time to focus on things they wanna write instead of pleasing me.

I need to go make some coffee about this.

(Also I remembered I wanted to do a Basara OC based on Izumo no Okuni and now I'm screwed b/c IDK if I want her to be Keiji's cool sempai, or just someone with the same wacky sense of dress and style. I do want her to be an inspiration on him, not the other way around, but I also think it would be amazing for them to only function based on the one shared braincell they have when they're around each other.

And I also want her to be gay as heck, but that's literally not news.)