I am indecisive

I've been thinking about a Highly Specific Wrecker-related AU for Aligned and I don't know if my mood is more "*makes AU* aw, goddammit, the horny got in again >:(((" or "*sees rarepair* oh fuck. Goddammit. Now I gotta make another fucking AU"

(Also how many times can I title these with 'titling is hard' before I just give up?)

Writing self-indulgent garbage is hard.

I don't even know what it is about writing for a lack of audience (I don't think anyone really reads my posts unless I link them to people, in which case I know my audience already) that just. Makes my words hit a wall. I managed to dump a collective 600 words across two conversations about an AU (and the ship accompanying it) that is quite interesting but when I come here, I can't even put a name to it because it feels wrong to let people know what I'm thinking.

See, I'm doing it again.

(The ship is Optimus/Impactor b/c I feel weird dancing around it now and yes it is entirely born out of me looking at two characters I find very sexy and going "I should be able to be in the middle of that".)

(And you should know that between finishing writing this & posting it, I got validated on it by one of the friends I dumped some of that 600 words to, so bluh bluh bluh.)