TFA Optimus is such a poor judge of character

I reject the idea that I'd ever like Sentinel Prime, but I do kind of find his and Optimus' relationship interesting because Optimus' willingness to "give into" Sentinel says interesting things about him.

I get the sense that Optimus might actually be too close to really see what kind of a power hungry jackass Sentinel is -- like he's been around him long enough to know that Sentinel is all talk, essentially, and then during the show when Sentinel finally starts moving away from being all talk, Optimus is soft on him because at the back of his mind, he still thinks Sentinel "doesn't really mean it". It's essentially fundamental attribution error.

The other way this "I expected no less from you (yet I somehow don't hold you accountable for it)" makes sense is if Optimus actually does hold the same principles as Sentinel does (because Sentinel is infuriatingly principled, complete egotist or not), and sees Sentinel as the successful one because he's capable of doing the things that "feel bad" that are still "right" in the framework they're using. In that sense, his insistence that on Earth, they're on his turf and need to play by his rules makes more sense -- needing the change in context to be able to square away the... pretty damn obvious mental dissonance he has over those principles.

And the reality, as usual, is probably somewhere in the middle.

But either way, Sentinel Prime is interesting, if only through how his presence doesn't just act as contrast to what a much better leader and person Optimus is, but also because casts light on some of Optimus' flaws, and I feel like I need to do something with that.

My crap memory

I totally forgot how much I'm into skirts until I randomly started thinking about how good they look on. Everyone tbh.

And I was having kind of a New Kink Crisis about it until I remembered that the last guy I slept with, I specifically slept with b/c he looked nice in a dress.

Good going. Fun times.

Productivity

Instead of writing the short snack that's just cuteness for its own sake and a good way to practice character perspective for something longer, I watched glassblowing videos for five entire hours.

Productivity: redux

Now I'm just sitting here rereading my own fics.

I mean, that's also good. I was very satisfied in Half A Mind but I'm surprised at how compelling Lookout still is, despite having been a snarly mess to complete at the time of writing.

I am not bad at this, by any stretch. Not at all. But right now motivation is at a premium and it's late and I already got the bit I wanted written and the rest of it is just filler and urgh.