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yvannairie) wrote2019-01-26 03:29 pm
yvannairie) wrote2019-01-26 03:29 pm
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Oh yeah, I totally forgot to mention -- I had two dreams last night, both with the theme "your conditions are gonna fuck your good plans over."
In one, my plans to camp out on a field (with permission from the farmer) during a training reprieve of some kind was screwed over by everyone else deciding to camp on the same field, causing a noise and a mess and causing me to move to a quieter place where I got in trouble for tresspassing, and in one I was trying to fix a TV that had fallen over that at first, I though had only had some wires pulled out of sockets that I could easily solder in place, but which turns out had a crucial part broken which I couldn't easily fabricate, so there was no guarantee it would function after I put it back together.
The first instance was more "I had a good plan that relied on me being the only one using it -- but since everyone is doing it, now, it's not working for any of us" and the second one was more like "I have to fight tooth and nail to prove that I can do this, and me admitting it can't be done is gonna be taken as proof that my skills aren't as good as I believe them to be".
Hmm.
In one, my plans to camp out on a field (with permission from the farmer) during a training reprieve of some kind was screwed over by everyone else deciding to camp on the same field, causing a noise and a mess and causing me to move to a quieter place where I got in trouble for tresspassing, and in one I was trying to fix a TV that had fallen over that at first, I though had only had some wires pulled out of sockets that I could easily solder in place, but which turns out had a crucial part broken which I couldn't easily fabricate, so there was no guarantee it would function after I put it back together.
The first instance was more "I had a good plan that relied on me being the only one using it -- but since everyone is doing it, now, it's not working for any of us" and the second one was more like "I have to fight tooth and nail to prove that I can do this, and me admitting it can't be done is gonna be taken as proof that my skills aren't as good as I believe them to be".
Hmm.