Yeah, like, I'm just sensitive to shame. I am sensitive to social policing. Cringe isn't about anything I feel, cringe is a reactionary feeling and that I feel that I am cringe is a sign that my thinking has been influenced from the outside. I'm just not the kind of person who does things that I don't actively enjoy, and the reminder that some people actively don't enjoy the thing I do is just... Like, IDK, I've been asked to yield so much in my life, my hobbies are the one place where I will not do that. I would rather be a screeching fanboy stereotype than try to minimise myself down to avoid external judgement. I don't pass already, I am already visibly disabled, so why would I do it to myself more, y'know?
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Date: 8/5/23 09:45 (UTC)Yeah, like, I'm just sensitive to shame. I am sensitive to social policing. Cringe isn't about anything I feel, cringe is a reactionary feeling and that I feel that I am cringe is a sign that my thinking has been influenced from the outside. I'm just not the kind of person who does things that I don't actively enjoy, and the reminder that some people actively don't enjoy the thing I do is just... Like, IDK, I've been asked to yield so much in my life, my hobbies are the one place where I will not do that. I would rather be a screeching fanboy stereotype than try to minimise myself down to avoid external judgement. I don't pass already, I am already visibly disabled, so why would I do it to myself more, y'know?