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I woke up spicy and irritated about the big Eurodance meme song b/c as someone who likes eurobeat and eurodance and EDM, a) it's a really boring song to listen to and features none of the things that make me want to dance to it and b) the entire thing is a joke about broken English.

Choose-your-own-adventure ass situation

I've been thinking since yesterday about the PMG documentary on Disco Elysium and how the whole situation is so narratively perfect illustration of two things that could have easily been core themes in a narrative like DE.

The first one is that you can't talk the talk and not walk the walk, that you can't arrange your community to be effectively living its values if you're still operating from a place of superiority in relation to it, if you're still mentally boxing people as 'leaders' and 'followers' instead of allowing for that self-determination by everyone (there's nothing wrong with being a follower, after all -- some of us know we're not trustworthy with authority), and likewise that you can't rely on communities of affinity and care to protect the rights of the individual under capitalism, or arguably any system, because being an asshole is a human right. If interpersonal consequences are the same as economic and communal consequences, all that happens is that people will make up a bad dude and compare everyone's proximity to that bad dude to see if they deserve to live or not.

It... sucks, it sucks that even in messy reality where there is no narrative, these things bubble to the surface so clearly that I could almost envision them in an outline somewhere, as a clear-cut exploration of a common dynamic that plays out on the smaller scale all the time. And at the same time, on some level I feel like I'm poisoned by the idea of there being a narrative, being so able to single these ideas out from a messy reality we don't even have a full picture of, as the documentary crew constantly keeps affirming.