Stress journal

I'm not really super ready to talk about what's going on with me in school and work so predictably I'm spending a lot more time trying to unwind and find entertainment, and I'm starting to become afraid outrage tourism over the latest fandom wank shitstorm is getting out of hand.

But outside of continuing to enforce a "if your DNI says 'pedoincest apologist' like that's a real fucking thing, you're a useful idiot at best and actively dangerous to me either way" policy regarding WHOSE content I interact with and putting a moratorium on following proship discourse blogs (especially ones with a soothing affect b/c I know just looking at the stuff getting debunked isn't good for me)... Honest to god, I'm not sure how else I can responsibly do escapism, with things in their current state.

I guess my other option is to stop interacting with fandom altogether and go back to canon but sitting my ass down to just watch TV feels somehow wrong, like I haven't earned the right to just zonk out every day after an unproductive time at school.

I really need a day job

The unfortunate reality is that I'm easy to keep happy. There's no such bullshit work that I don't feel meaningfully occupied, except maybe the rare instance of "being paid to be available" which I hate.

School is too aimless for me.