(My 3DS is one of the earliest produced, both the game card latch and the circle pad are loose)

*spends hours grinding SOS chains and gets my team up to high twenties in a 16-20 level area*

*drops 3DS while walking bus, causing the game card to wiggle and lose contact*

*all that progress lost, because of course I didn't save mid-trial*


AAAAAAAAAAAA I'M an amateur

Tensions

I went and added some commentary on a post about communication (as you do) and now I'm sitting here struggling with my brain going "see? Speech is an action, therefore talking about your thoughts qualifies as acting on them"

Which is a really bad rabbit hole to go down when you have OCD and intense intrusive thoughts and a horrible pattern of blaming yourself on shit that was brought about by failures on both sides of the social equation. Because it's true that if people treat me like shit based on the way I talk to them, then that's entirely deserved, but at the same time, me saying "I sometimes think about how bad I am for my friends, how I'm always going to hurt them and how being my friend is an ordeal"... won't make it true, because things cannot be true just because I think them.

I don't know how to square the circle of communication being something you need to consciously do that isn't an action. Not all speech is even equal in this regard, because even I recognise that sometimes saying things that make others feel bad is not the same as being verbally violent with them, and the other way around. With speech, intent matters so much -- with a physical action, it either hurt the target or it didn't, but with speech you always need to consider whether something was intended to inform or to manipulate, whether it was proactive or reactive, whether it was truthful or misinformed, before you can even get to "did it cause harm"?