Frustrating

On the one hand, losing weeks at a time to being emotionally overwhelmed isn't exactly... fun, but at least I'm more confident that that's what's happening, rather than my brain deciding to dump all serotonin out of nowhere.

But at the same time being unable to sustain any mood that isn't vaguely cranky is annoying. I have to put so much extra effort into just basic-ass manners it makes me really feel like socialisation ain't fucking worth it as a whole and I need to know my place and stop baiting people b/c it's not their fault I'm depressed and exhausted.

Maybe try not being a heinous cunt, self? It's not acceptable just because you know you're doing it, and know why you're doing it.