I wanna go back to Indivisible but I am stopped by an invisible force of bluh

[yvannairie]

When you need to get up for coffee and you also need to get up for video games so you don't get up and instead scroll through Tumblr for an hour.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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[rhodanum]

"instead scroll through Tumblr for an hour."

That's been me for the last... year or so? Games, watching something, doing something actually productive? Nah, let's mindlessly refresh social media.

Turns out it's depression. ^^;

[yvannairie]

Yeah lmao for me it's more just... Waiting on anything makes my executive functions freak the fuck out, and I'm waiting on both my aunt's funeral and the postal worker's strike, to everything that requires transitions takes twice as long and requires way more prep.

[rhodanum]

My condolences, I'm very sorry to hear about your aunt. I've found that I can deal with waiting itself, it's just that I have these long stretchers of... fugue, for lack of a better word, when I'm not motivated to do anything but stare at a blank wall for hours at a time. Or at social-media. Even watching a film seems like an impossible task.

[yvannairie]

Thank you. I wasn't close with her, but I am on pretty friendly terms with my cousin and my uncle-by-marriage, so I'm glad I get to see them, at least.

And oh yeah, depression static. I'm honestly really bad at telling when it's just executive dysfunction and when it's that, too >_>) I feel like these days I too do much writing and talking with people to really be at my deepest lethargy, and I've never been the type to just scroll through and click "like" on everything I see, so even social media requires at least a minimum effort on my part.