Oh-- c'mon, I was having a good day!

[yvannairie]

Emotional backprocessing has me wondering if I'm capable of having healthy relationships to people with anxiety at all or if unhealthy people are invariably going to have unhealthy relationships.

(Seriously, me wondering how on Earth I managed to spend five years in a stagnant relationship where the other person was lit up with so many red lights I hardly talked about myself to her by the time we broke up has so far not really done anything except make me feel way worse about my social skills in general.

If there's a happy medium between "not being so candid that other people start to instinctively try to appease you" and "being so hands-off other people start acting like your hard emotional boundaries are merely suggestions", I don't fucking see it. There doesn't seem to be a healthy way to talk about other people's feelings without becoming presumptious, and there doesn't seem to be a healthy way to talk about my feelings without becoming suffocatingly egotistical.

I'm so tired, I'm honestly done with the concept of human relationships.)